Mother

When I commented to my husband recently that both my mother and sister were crazy, he said “You’re from the same stock, you know.”  So after I reminded him that he married me so he must be completely insane, I got to thinking.  What exactly are Mom’s personality traits that I want to let go? For starters, Mom is …

I Crossed the Room for Louise

While Louise is my only sister, I am not the only sister in my sister’s life. To use modern parlance, my sister is from another mister. Frank had two girls from his first marriage and after Frank died, they weren’t in touch with Louise as much as Mom would have liked… But to be fair …

Loving my Step Children into my Life

When I first got together with Troy he told me about his children from a previous marriage. Of course, I nearly bolted when we had the conversation: I felt as if someone had clamped concrete shoes on my feet and thrown me into a lake! Troy, calmly, kept talking. I don’t know if he realised …

Troy – Friends, and more?

During the last three or so years of marriage with Brian, I was friends with Troy. He worked in the Newbury office while I worked in the Godalming office. We only talked on the phone, and getting to know him was a slow process but I was attracted to him. While on the phone with …

Depression and Suicide

It wasn’t long after Andrea left the US that I decided that the world would be better off without me.  I would go home after school and, before Mom got home, I would get a number of tablets out of the cupboard and wonder how many I would need to take to get the job done.  The …

Indentured Servitude

I first met my first husband, Brian, when I was working as a maître-d’ at a high-class steak restaurant in Champaign. Table for 3? Great! Come in and sit down. *smile* Here are your menus. Your server tonight will be Kyle. My future husband had shoulder-length blond hair worn loosely around the face. From behind …

What do you want to do when you grow up?

I can only speculate what my life would have been like without my sister.  Although I was lonely and felt decidedly unloved, I doted on my sister.  I didn’t feel I could trust my parents, so I wanted to be the kind of person that Louise could rely on.  I grew interested in child development.  …

Buddhism

Buddhism is a religion/philosophy of lists. Historically, the lists start with the enlightenment of the Buddha (aka someone who is enlightened and does not have to reincarnate again). Buddha is not a god. Buddha is someone who, over hundreds of lifetimes, achieved enlightenment. Buddha said that there are four noble truths: 1) Life is ultimately …